Home is where your heart is

This post has nothing to do with usm life at all.
just plain I miss home mode..
I miss my grandma..
some might say im just bluffing.. (sape plak y nak rindu nenek tghari bute camni)
Her tongue was sharp and her words make everybody's heart bleed. She was a tyrant, but she was there. We saw our parents only a few times a year since we were kid but as long as I could remember, wan had always been a part of my life. I believed grandmothers lived forever.
Acu salu ckp 'taola your grandma' since forever and I am really annoyed with her since she practically brought us up. She told us what to do, when to do it and it irritated the hell out of me. I often get beaten and chased around our house for not doing the chores she set us up with. Acu and mak are always there to support wan whenever we get scolded and I used to hate them for that.When I remember the way she treats us now I can smile and said.. that is my grandma.. and I am proud to show all of my friends and says my grandma rocks. If not for her, maybe I am not who I am today. She taught me well.. that old lady.. she taught us how fold the shirts, how to sweep the floor and even how to leave your laundry in the washing machine. She taught us to be a human thats the right words.. .She was eccentric, sharp-tongued and sometimes a tyrant, but she never let me forget what was really importan

LonEliness

how hard must it be?
to raise 7kids without your husband help...
without your husband support..
I might say it is impossible to complete the task..
as a mother..
her tiny body is weak from diabetes..
she just goes on without a single glance to what anybody might say from her failed marriage..
she just endured the pain alone..
and now she lives alone with her youngest son..
maybe not alone..
all of her daughters are away at the moment..
furthering their studies in boarding school
her eldest is in penang( usm) 8hours from her hometown and
her 2nd born is thousand miles away from home furthering her studies in TESL
her 3rd daughter, the crybaby is now in shah alam preparing for the overseas study program in pharmacy
the 4th daughter 5hours drive from home and now is facing SPM in MRSM jasin..
her 5th and 6th daughter are also away in boarding school now studying hard for the sake of their beloved mother.
yang tinggal??
her only son.. the youngest.. in 4th grade in primary school..
some might say.. "senang la kak ani ramai anak perempuan kat rumah x sunyi"
but the truth is she misses her daughter a lot..
she is alone..
I love u mom.. I'll try my best to not dissapoint you in my studies...
I know u r worried about me..
but i can take care of myself..
u can rest peacefully knowing that your eldest is struggling with her study..
someday.. we will be together again..
we will somehow survive this cruel world.. its us against the world!!

eid adha pic

first and foremost, sorry for the delay.. I mean to upload the raye haji pic for you but the baktisiswa stuff keep me busy and thus the delay.. enjoy the pic dear..

just so you know

I just finished my 2nd paper today for analitycal chemistry and it feels like an ENOURmos burden is lifted from my tiny shoulder(literally speaking). Ive been studying weeks for this paperbecause I dont think I can pass and fortunately it just a himpunan soalan3 past year.. lucky me I've been having hard time analysing the past year paper that I even remember the answer. 3more paper to go. thats mean three more probability to fail... the final examination weeks is my worst nightmare. less sleep, less suju, lots of carb.. might just die from the irritation.. thats all for now. till next time

Girls tend to...


... fight for a man
mood swing for tiny matter
jealous for nothing
enjoy the feeling of being chased
keep man hanging half way
lie for pride
proud for little things
act innocent & naive
brag all time
gossip big time
screw up friendship because of man

We girl are many things.. (kikiki)

Al-Fatihah

abah with granny and mom, acu n mama

never in my life I imagine this thing could happen.. things that you think cant happen to you.. out of your control.. it happens so fast that I cant believe it.. I cry my heart out when I first hear the news with teary eyes I drove home which takes me 8hours to arrive I miss the funeral but luckily I can be with the family until the kenduri tahlil is done.. Al fatihah buat abah.. He has gone to rahmahtullah bak kate my granny.. moge ditempatkan dengan golongan org beriman.. buat Zafirah.. sabar.. ni semua dugaan duduk jauh.. study smart dear.. you will be fine..

Its been so looooooooong

this pic is from last eid actually

this one is after sembahyang raya


sisters for life



friends from highschool


eid 2009 without Zafirah


eid 2009 it has been 2weeks since I can have decent acces on the internet.. so long indeed with all of the last minutes assignment and presentation I might go crazy without being able to surf the internet.. and whos to blame? the hackers and internet manipulators or the PPKT(Pusat Pentadbiran Komunikasi & Teknologi) for taking action against them ? We, the innocent one suffer because of them.. No job could be done without the internet.. never realise that internet can be d****d important!! right now I'm in the computer lab surfing the internet although I should be doing computer lab practice.. I'm going to upload the eid pic since I dont have time to do so in the past few weeks.. so.. feast your eyes guys